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Imminent

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 08:01:38 GMT

something comes when silence breaks
a perfect little fucked mistake
this is no well oiled machine
a glitch will always break the strings
i'm lost in mirrors
reflection cracked
misinformed monkeys
will break my back
we keep the keys
to the playground
it goes away
if you make a sound
spin me in circles
and smash me to bits
make me your puppet
for the hell of it
and we are zeroes
when there is no one
dreaming spiderwebs
just to come undone
and where's the heart?
it's drowned in waves
and where's the heart?
it's been gone for days
we are wolves
gnawing at the bone
in these dreams
you leave me all alone
kill these lights
so i can sleep
end me now
to find release
there is no tomorrow
if you are lost right now
come and take me away
if there was a somehow

A Dreamed Mistake

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 09:24:25 GMT

if i wasn't here would you look for me
if i drowned today would you search the seas
all we're left is memories
lost in dreams of what could be
once it's gone dead is dead
every color drains through my head
we are all experiments in perception
stumbling through life, misled conception
am i awake?
this dreamed mistake
the dream is dead so shut the light
i wish to hell i could sleep tonight

Crush

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 09:23:43 GMT

there's only one i love to hurt
like crushing flowers in the dirt
you turn your back i slip away
these are the moments i have saved
i wish the dream could silence
the fallen whispers of regret
tomorrow's never is ever
that which i expect
running circles in my eyes
and traces left for dead
i would make the stars all fall
if you could clean away my head
tighten up your hood, my love
in hope that rain will come
i need to see if you'll be here
when all my world is done

A Moment Gone

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 09:20:38 GMT

in whispered promise erased from breath
a moment gone is a flash of death
keep it locked inside where the world can't find
like a broken wish that i thought was mine
there are no regrets except for all i've done
the final curtain comes down to only one
trying not to slip away from all that is real
i just want the stitches sewn, the pills to never feel
could you look at me if i were only true
or would my everything mean the end of you
i close my eyes and forget to breathe
be my forever or silence me

Dispel

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 10:41:18 GMT

i am at the end of my universe
a parallel insanity
breaking up my mind
the flowers weep
in dreams i bleed
nothing here is as it should be
wasted breath
burnt away like cigarettes
i am falling in to the machine
splintered time
burrowed deep
all i can be is lost
the scars i keep
like memories
swallowed in the storm
i am drunk on regret
dispelled, distraught
the frightened screams
i thought were mine
now call me the fold
the other side
of my perfect mess
is anything but this
i close my eyes
seperate
the mind from the flesh

12-30-5

Dispatch

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 10:40:36 GMT

i think this smoke
is smothering me
got my mind dispatched
and the feelings mislead
i could have sworn i tasted you
in every breath i drown
you haunt me more than ever
trying to pull me back down
i will always deceive you
from the deepest parts of me
i keep holding on to
the scarred and bruised forgotten dreams
now something has me in its grasp
so i will see, forever, me
want this world to tumble down
if i'm to finally breathe
the fallen drops
like shooting stars
the haze unveils
and show my scars
i never step
i only fall
and just you
were to be my all
i am promises
left unsaid
when i should feel alive
i could be dead

12-19-5

The Wicked Refuse

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 10:39:56 GMT

in my nightmares
i see your face
the claws of yours
are me replaced
i am flesh
scarred and bruised
a vessel drained
for you to use

like my heart's decay
she corrupts me

i had a dream
that i refused
a way to bleed
and it was you
from every corner
decay creeps in
my cave of dreams
i disappear again

like my heart's decay
she corrupts me

the sting of metal
caught in my throat
the flowing blood
i start to choke
i can't believe
we've come to this
lost in the embrace
of your wicked kiss

12-6-5

High And Low

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 10:39:00 GMT

i gave up long ago
you should have as well
if you follow me too long
you're gonna feel like hell
i will let you down
and break everything
we will always drown
in all my pain
nothing can kill me more
than the smile upon your lips
there's no way to be sure
what's held within your kiss
and i think you'll find
you always get me high
each and every time
you always get me high
and i keep on floating
destroying all i touch
with you in my veins
forever's never enough
when we blur the lines
of everything that's real
if you would be mine
then i could truly feel
and i think you'll find
you always get me high
when you slip inside
you always get me high

12-4-5

My Real

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 10:38:12 GMT

what i bleed is what i feel
a step unknown
in my head and in my real
i walk alone
no way to reach me
beyond the sky
nothing can touch me
when i blur the lines
nothing here is anything
like it ever could have been
i watch my world drown and burn
when i close my eyes again
i feel you close
as i fall apart
twisted thorns
wrapped round my heart
the smallest prick
and i shall bleed
the red will stick
my darkest need

11-26-5

My Love

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 10:37:12 GMT

i AM so numb
and i like It
something in me is GONE
been gone for so long
i have erased everything
i have misplaced. Myself
everything is nothing
nothing is anything
I can't find the way out, i can't
give me shards of broken hearts
and shove them in my veins
make me fragile
make me feel
make me anything but me
blood is drawn and painted thick
i taste forever in every drop
i am the empty spaces
i am the Hollow
i am, all i am, for you
My Love

11-7-5

Withdrawal

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 10:28:49 GMT

your love pulled me
from insanity's grasp
when you slipped away
it came right back
now i am always lost
locked within my head
with the echoes and screams
of things that should be dead
there's no more whispers
blown in my ear
to keep me safe
to hold me near
i lost the way to forever
like i ever had a chance
i'd breathe if i could ever
ever make anything last
i'm split
and i'm shred
the latest form
of what should be dead
i burned your world
with all my lies
if you could see the shattered dreams
lost inside my eyes
i scar my skin with cigarettes
tear my veins with razor slits
fill the empty space with every drug
so i will never ever feel love

11-6-5

Flail

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 10:27:54 GMT

drowning in
the ocean deep
i'd dream of you
if i could sleep
something slips
tears me apart
i could feel love
if i had a heart
this blackened thing
stutters and flails
i tried to escape
but i always fail
innocence, i had
but it’s now decayed
broken into little parts
and slowly blown away

10-2-5

Wraith

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 07:57:47 GMT

i've got blisters on my lips
from the fire of your kiss
got me wishing and dreaming
that i could exist
inside of you my love
my sweetest, purest drug
i'd break the walls of security
for just a taste of your eternity
nothing here is mine anymore
the lines we drew now are blurred
i hurt myself with thoughts of you
broken bones and shattered skin
painted the sky with all my blood
drained myself to let you in
there's no more fear to haunt my mind
all my tears i've left behind
will you hold onto me
and make me complete
will you save me from
my heart's deceit
and show me there's more
than the scratching at my veins
make me think for a moment
that i'm really not insane
kill the decay
i've swallowed deep
make me believe
i'm more than me
sew my eyes forever shut
so i shall never ever wake up

Surrendering

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 08:38:21 GMT

why won't this echo
fall from my head
fall when we're dead
the blackened wicks
on candlesticks
the wine is blood
dripped from our wrists
let's put on masks
and let's pretend
and find out just
how we will end
the scars of time
that have ravaged me
of drowning deep
within your sea
i kiss the cold of surrendering
thought i'd never
i would never leave
if you could ever
ever be in me
i am the limbs
of stitches shred
the last regret
now raped and bled
and nothing here
can be as true
as everything i lost with you

Undertaken

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 09:11:16 GMT

i am the tool of broken dreams
the only cause to all your screams
something here is reaching out
beyond the shadows and smoke
crooked fingers wrap around
if you ask, i'll help you choke
the meaning of the ashes
the corpse of memories
i would take it all away
if i could only breathe
cover myself in lies
pretend to pacify
all the scars and splinters
that make you want to die
there's a darkness at the end
keeping you here
a truth we pretend
to never disappear
the specks of broken promises
eating through the flesh
are devouring the soul
and leaving nothing left
if i could stop the decay
of your eternity
the fragile little pieces
of your pathetic dreams
would you promise me
all that you are
and burn for me
just like a star
all of this can stop
the tragedy of love
you could become mine
with a sacrifice of blood
just close your eyes
wish it all away
make me yours
and you will be saved

Immerse

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 13:07:24 GMT

if i could be seen
and if you could care
would you part the clouds
or would you keep me right here?
i coat my skin with broken glass
watch everything i love collapse
and i tear
tear it all apart
so all the thorns
won't reach my heart
am i just a memory
or another broken dream
can this now be anything?
when pain is love
and love is pain
and only scars
will ever remain
i'll cut the veins of truth to see
become anything other than me
i want to to end the world
when i kill myself
feel the shadow's hold
and nothing else
the days don't end
when i can't sleep
when i close my eyes
will you be with me?
in the emptiness i keep
in my darkest memories
i give everything i am to you
to become anything but this
i'll take my final chance
to be lost, or saved, by your kiss
i let the worms in
let the worms in
to stop the breathing
stop the breathing
you are the end
you are my end

Forever Kiss

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 10:17:59 GMT

i'm drifting, falling out of this world
picking up the pieces just to smash them apart
tired of filling the void with drugs and girls
there's a tiny crack spreading through my heart
what if all i see
is everything
and there's no release
from all the pain
i am the darkest cloud
filling the bluest sky
the perfect end
to a perfect lie
nothing heals
as the scars will show
no one cares
i'm all alone
there is darkness here inside
i gave myself to escape you
the only thing i ever learned
nothing i touch ever stays true
close your eyes
take me down
my fading breath
the only sound
show me the light
i used to touch
the moments in time
that were never enough
make me something
please, anthing
paint me with razorblades
be the end to my everything
i wait for you
with bloody lips
to taste the decay
of your forever kiss
you are all
that i can lose
here, alone
i await you

Sanguine

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 10:02:30 GMT

i'm stuck with you
inside my brain
need to hollow my head
to make you escape
there's no connection to the past
everything loved just slips away
so now there is no meaning
to the little things i ever say
i would go back
to the start of it all
watch it collapse
and everything fall
the worthless promises
yours and mine
the perfect moments
of another time
i see you when i close my eyes
little scars and broken hearts
pain is all i ever taste
and in the dark i'm all apart
crying for you
my sorrow's peace
the only way
to find release
i'm leaving here
on waves of glass
bleeding away
to escape the past
on my bed
of broken dreams
i fade away
and you're with me
make this blood
be ever true
this mess of love
i saved for you
just one touch and i give up
death and you are all i want

Deceive

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 11:17:34 GMT

bleed my mind
and we can fall
escape from time
and lose it all
all of this
is everything
be my heart's
deceiving queen
run me down
with piercing eyes
a jagged glimpse
of my demise
i stop the world
just to breathe
kill myself
to find release
the haunting whispers drain
bitter poisons now undone
shallow gasps of you remain
the scattered fragments now become
kept in sorrow's hold
forever now misplaced
blood is drawn and cold
erased in your embrace
the traces of this dream
a final moment shed
if i've escaped with you
then why do i feel dead?

The Unknown

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 11:29:44 GMT

i'm peering into the glass
of never meant
sifting through the ashes
of the unknown
you slide across my skin
like forgotten drops of rain
collecting in the cracks
of what i've left behind
piercing through the haze
of another memory
the pieces here
are never whole
i am just the parts
i am just the parts.

there is something wretched here.
a shadow in my bed
it's fucking and it's killing
in all the corners of my head
could this be true?
or just another perfect dream
everything is fine
if i just don't hear the screams
something twisted and perverse
is crawling through my veins
and it has got me feeling
so i really can't complain
my whole self is thrown
into the echo and the flash
i just need to know
if this could ever last
blackest walls of fate
bleed before my eyes
and nothing here is safe
from the ugly tortured cries
watch my entire world
drowning in your sea
if you are an illusion
then what does that make me?

i'm having trouble at the moment deciding whether or not these two parts should be together or not. they're like two seperate (but are they complete on their own?) thoughts that came out at the same time. but they both fit with the title that i have. and i wouldn't be able to decise which should take it or what to call the other one. i'm just confused and lazy right now. so, yeah, anyway....

Absolute

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 10:59:09 GMT

i'm what slips through the cracks
what hides in the dark
the perfect little flaw
spreading through your heart
i hate you
and fucking despise me
i wish that all this
was just a dream
please tell me i'm not lost
that something is waiting at the end
or tell me that there's nothing
so i won't have to pretend
you are the death that eats me whole
you are decay spread through my soul
and i would cut you out
if i could find you inside
you are the broken promise
that i have to hide
i'll waste away into the black
i'll kill it all to have you back
feelings are nothing
the hollow, my everything
you are the whisper
echoing in my veins
i am truth gone insane
i am nothing if not pain

The Kiss Goodbye

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 13:05:39 GMT

flay the flesh
make me still
tap the vein
swallow this pill
this used to make me happy
used to make me care
now i don't care what happens
i have no hopes to see you there
beyond the lines of memory
among the ashes of my dreams
you are something i cannot whisper
a precious flaw i keep in me
what if this
is all there is
my only bliss
lost in your kiss
i can tear apart
the nails and the scabs
draw in blood
the life i'll never have
i hear your screams
through these empty walls
inside of me
everytime i fall
there is death in love
pleasure in pain
i would take a breath
if you could remain
but the end is here
and i cut you out
and when i disappear
you are not allowed
to reach me
and pull me back
the future bleeds
and i collapse
nothing here is anything
there are no words for this
you and me are shattering
and everything is what i'll miss
i am decay
i am eternity
and you might say
this was always me
the dark
and the dead
the broken parts
lost in my head
i could have kept
a fragment close
to share my love
with a lonely ghost
i still give myself
to lose
i kill myself
for you

Disable

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 11:41:30 GMT

drifting on the skin of lies
a forever of the memory dies
thought i turned it around
and broke through the wall
thought i tasted you
and saved it all
but your promises
so black i can't breathe
this bitter fucking taste
is all you left for me
paths entwine
the wretched kiss of broken glass
i would steal a piece of you
if i knew that it could last
we fall apart
broken and worn
we scar ourselves
to try and be reborn
i count the ways
you pass me by
swallow decay
to never die
something sick
eats me whole
a little prick
to lose control
a tattered sign
a face so blank
i fucked you
just to be erased
the blood won't wash
the scars don't heal
the stars dissolve
the end revealed
and if i could be anything
i gave you the choice
i am nothing now
but a hollowed dreamer's voice

not sure if this is any good. not sober enough to tell. but, as usual, it just comes straight from my head and into these words. may fuck around with it some later, if i feel the need.

Vestige

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 03:02:31 GMT

am i broken on the sides
all forgotten and unkept
if i didn't have you first
then i never could have slept
the lines of this world
are making me insane
the breath of my mistakes
is all that can remain
take me and put me away
some place dark where no one will say
that i am only the truth i deceive
i am only what you give to me
i could be flesh
ready to use
i could be death
crawling in you
somewhere there's a scar
i hide and i keep
a lonely reminder
of what you are to me

The Killing Fields

Fri, 27 May 2005 11:50:56 GMT

the final sullen sun is set
a taste of horrid regret
i watched the final pieces break
you are my last mistake
i watch myself fall
reflected in your eyes
i killed my world
i built with lies
i've nothing left
to slip away
a wasted life
in search of change
let me forgive, forget
let me silence it
the lost chances
i have abused
holes in my heart
i saved for you
forever is a void
deep in this skin
forever's never you
creeping from within
i saw this end
breathing down on me
i've become the thing
i never wanted to be
my perfect dream
asleep and dead
all the colors
i have bled
there's a killing in the fields
among the silent cries
just one lonely whisper
and everything dies